Recently on Integral Life, Corey and Ken talk about Forgiveness and Gratitude. (https://integrallife.com/a-course-in-anti-fragility/) The whole world and many of it’s inhabitants seem to be transforming into something new with the Covid-19 event.
It’s been a while since I’ve published a blog. I like many others, have been transforming through life circumstances. In 2017 I ended a 25 year relationship to a marriage partner. 💔 It was excruciating painful and included moving from Nevada back to my home state of Texas and my birth place, Austin.
Since late 2017 I have been working on healing by taking lots of road trips, a lot of self care, and shadow work. All of this was very helpful but of course life had to go on, so the healing was slow. I was able to do a lot of forgiving of myself and my partner and feel some real gratitude to him in early 2020. I told him in a telephone conversation that while it was the right thing for us to part, he was the love of my life and I was so grateful for all the great years we had. ❤️
On March 18, he chose to end his life. It was the day after his 69th birthday. I was in week two of my Covid-19 quarantine at the time, and so was forced to hibernate in my grief. I could only get virtual hugs, condolences and all those things that I would normally love and prefer to get in person. Because of the quarantine I had to go deeper into myself for comfort and growth from my life circumstance. For me that was a blessing not to go outside myself for these healings and they are still ongoing.
I’m still a chrysalis in the goo 🐛 of dissolving from my old self to the new, but I’m excited to see what kind of new butterfly I am becoming! How about you and your becoming? 🦋